square one?

I'm scared to get on a scale, I figured I'm probably back at square one with my many illnesses. My pants are tight again, which rubs up against the sores. I'm feeling SO uncomfortable, shingles are terrible. I'm going back to the doctor today to see if I'm having some complications -- was running a slight fever last night and my throat is sore. Plus, I have an area of swelling at the base of my spine where my back pain was centered.

Can't help but feel pretty useless at work right now, either. I'm avoiding any lifting of any sort since that's what triggered my absences last week. I try to delegate but I feel bad -- it feels like everyone's doing my job for me right now.

I can't wait for all this to be over so I can get back into some pattern and make my pants loose again.

Edit: Doctor said I've got a secondary infection *from* the shingles, which is where the fever and sore throat are coming from. More antibiotics, yay...